Countdown...

Two days to go 'til New Year's...

What's the Real Deal???

We're approaching another new year...and still, he hasn't said anything... I mean, what's the deal? Is he just being overly friendly? Am I reading the signs wrong? He confuses me with everything he has done for me. If they didn't mean anything special, then, why bother going the extra mile for me? I wish he would say something...

Maybe I shouldn't expect...or, maybe, I should just stop thinking about it and just assume that all of it didn't mean anything... If he's not saying anything, then maybe it only means that he doesn't have special feelings or that he doesn't feel strongly about me. The feelings aren't so deep. Anyway, he won't always be there for me if I needed him. He's not like the other guys who go gaga over girls and would be there in a jiffy with one phone call. So, to save myself from getting disappointed in an upcoming rejection, maybe I should just, leave things be... We're just friends... that's just why he's just so nice to me... right?

*Sigh*

Interesting December

This December is certainly a month full of surprises and interesting moments. I am still trying to absorb everything with the tons of work that I have to finish in the office. I was suffering from writer's block awhile ago when I was exerting all the effort to produce a really nice business proposal. I think it's the holidays that's made my head over worked.

I'm still not done with Christmas shopping. Tried so many times to concentrate on it but I just realized that doing it after work is a bad idea. The malls are swamped with late Christmas shoppers and since I get cranky after a day's work, I just get irritated with the idea of fighting my way through the crowd and standing in loooooong lines to the cashier. I just end up going home empty handed.

I was able to shop last Sunday, but one day wasn't enough. I wasn't able to shop the day before because we finished making tons of orders of my special choco mallows. We were able to finish 70 batches in one day! That makes 700 pieces of choco mallows. :)

Finally, I was able to perm my hair! It was one of the daring things that I've done in my life! I like how it turned out and people are still not used to it, hehehe... My friends say I look like Ruthie of Seventh Heaven. :p Can't post a picture yet because there's something wrong with my phone. ;(

Went to the much awaited Mitsubishi event last Monday. I sang one song with the band again. Didn't win anything big this year though. But, I was still happy to have sang for them. I do it for the love of Mitsubishi! hehehe! It's also a flattering moment because one of the singers approached me and asked me if I was a pro and if I had a manager. I told her that I sing with a rock band and we don't have a manager yet. She told me that I should try singing with an accoustic band that plays more mellow music. I sang Constantly by Vanessa Williams that night, by the way. She also told me that she wished we could've met sooner because Passage was looking for a replacement for a female vocalist. I was surprised with her remark because Passage is a known band already and it's a really big step if I will audition. She got my number so she could refer me to a manager. Nana was encouraging me to go ahead and give my number. All I can say is, "Woah!" That was a really flattering offer! :)

Fallen..

It's been quite a while since I've written down something here. I have been busy with work and many things have happened the past few days. Besides what I've been writing here in my blogspot, there's only one thing that I haven't mentioned here. I may have mentioned it subtly but I never mentioned it outright. I think it's because I'm not yet ready to reveal it to him either. It's too personally precious and special, and at the same time, complicated. All I can say is that I've fallen...

Have you ever fallen in love with someone or a good friend you've known for a long time? And, sometimes, you can't seem to figure out what he really feels about you with his peculiar actions? Most of the time, I wished that he would just tell me what he wants to say so I wouldn't feel so confused. I wouldn't want to put him on the spot because I wouldn't want to pressure him on anything. I want to know if these feelings I've had in my heart all these years didn't wait in vain. Sigh.. oh, well...

December

It's the first day of December!!! 24 days to go and it's Christmas day once again :) I wonder what's gonna happen this Christmas Eve? I just hope we'll have a peaceful meal. I wouldn't want daggers to fly across the table again. The months fly by so fast like it was only yesterday when we began 2005. The start was pretty tough and a lot has happened throughout the year.

It's the first day of the Yuletide month and I'm still here at the office at past 6pm. I just finished polishing proposals and sending them to clients. Now, I'm just killing time while I wait for Nana to come back to the office because I have to accompany her to meet with someone. It has something to do with her cousin's wedding where she, out of her craziness, volunteered to plan it. Good luck to her!

Things haven't slowed down at work...wait a minute, it never did! Schedules will get more busy next week for we will be going to tons of meetings and clients' media Christmas parties. Like what my friend, Ed, told me when we were talking about my job, it's a glamorous life. Actually, it's not. All the glamour ends in being invited to a certain event because it's like going to a party. But once you get into the business, it's no longer fun. It becomes a job because you have to deal with the hosts who are the clients. You have to conduct yourself in a proffesional manner which means that you can't just relax and feel as if you're in a gimmick. For me, a party is when you just have fun and enjoy the company of friends. In events, there's no dancing! What's a party without dancing?

Sigh, oh, well...I guess I better get going. If I wanna be home early, I should get this dinner with Nana over and done with. I just hope he's not a D.O.M.!