A Walk In The Desert

It's been quite a while since I last wrote a "real" entry here. I have been dealing with a lot of stuff at work and village activities. To be honest, things have not been going well. A lot of things happened and changed during the weeks that has passed. It is more like a walk in the desert for me these days. I feel like I'm moving in a dry, empty space and I don't know which direction I'm heading. Can't seem to find an oasis where I can point my tired feet from this journey. I thirst for so many things that I have been longing to have in my career and personal life. But it seems as though the cross I carry behind my back is getting heavier and the burden is starting to sink in to my bones as well as my heart. All I have been feeling most of the time is confusion, stress, and pain. I keep on holding on to what little faith that is still left in me. I keep on praying for strength and guidance to push myself to continue walking no matter how heavy the cross may be. I am still hoping that I'll find my way out of this desert before it's too late.

Drifting...

Something close to my heart is drifting away....

"Forget Me Not"
Lucie Silvas

Forget me not, I ask of you
Wherever your life takes you to
And if we never meet again
Think of me every now and then
We had just one day to recall
Now all I want is something more
Than just a fading memory
Left wondering what could have been.

Isn't it a shame, that when timing's all wrong
You're doing what you never meant to,
There's always something that prevents you.
Well I believe in fate, it had to happen this way
But it always leaves me wondering whether...
In another life we'd be together.
We should feel lucky we can say... we've always got yesterday

And as I leave it all behind
You're still emblazoned in my mind
And for that very special day
Nobody loved me in that way

Forget me not, I ask of you
Wherever your life takes you to
And if we never meet again
Think of me every now and then

"The Longer We're Apart"
Lucie Silvas

I have been down this road before
And each time I run when I should walk
Diving too deep when I can't swim
Always asking what could have been
I held my heart out in my hands
And you pull me down each time I stand
And I've tried to fly away from you
I'd rather be alone than love you like I do

And so they say that time's a healer
Maybe it's about time that I start
But I've found time don't make it any easier
The longer we're apart

Why is every body always more afraid to live than die
They seem to have the strength to fail but not the will to try
I've never been like this and I'm not about to start
The part of me I miss I'll find now that we're apart

I'm going down this road once more
And each time I run when I should walk
When you reach the end just start again
Never look back at what could have been

And now I know that time's a healer
Maybe it's about time that I start
But I've found time it don't make it any easier
The longer the longer we're apart

Oh baby wont you sing it to me
Oh the longer baby
Oh oh yeah