the journey of a purple phoenix

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Mind Racing On 5th Gear...

In life, you can never tell if a guy you meet is all sincere about his intentions. You find yourself to be falling into his seductive embrace and then leave you cold when he gives you the silent tongue after your date. Later on, you discover that you're not the only one that he dated. You're just one of the girls he fooled. When you remember the times you spent, you wake up screaming in horror. Sounds like the story of my love life...

A lot of things have been going through my mind lately that I find myself lost in thought most of the time again. I have been thinking about my situation at work, heart matters, and other things. But, despite the bad things that have been happening, I think about the blessings I still have around me. It makes things more easier to bear. When things aren't going my way, I am blessed with friends who will always have my back. When I couldn't express myself, I have my music and my poems for songs. This is also an outlet for me to release some stress and confusion. Not that I'm on the verge of smashing a guitar...hehe.. And, of course, there's always sports to release more stress and take a break from the corporate life. I run a few rounds at the park or swim a few laps in the pool when there's something bothering me and need to cool down. Right now, my friend, Ed, and I are trying to get into the habit of playing badminton every week.

I wish I could go on details about the things that are going through my head right now but there's too many I don't know where to start. These thoughts just flash one after the other like car lights passing by. I'll write about it in detail when I'm ready...