Goodbye My Almost Lover

I wish things were different. I wish I've never met him and fell for his charms 11 years ago. If I hadn't then I wouldn't be foolish as to feel so messed up inside my heart. But, maybe it was the only way that I could avoid the wrong guys that came my way. Yet, I should've known that this will all end in such a heartbreak.

Now that I have taken baby steps to moving on, I just hope that not looking back would be the right thing to do. I just hope that letting go won't leave me lost in the vast space of emptiness. I know I won't find someone else as quickly as my other friends who have moved on from their broken relationships. I was never the type who throws herself to the next guy who shows interest. I was never the type who insists herself on someone. I am not ashamed that I still believe in the old fashion sense of a magical romance. I just hope that this time around it would be something real and mutually sure.

My friends would always tell me to date someone else already. I was too stubbornly in love to take their advice to this 11 years of going around in circles with him. I would gladly take their advice now. Yet, I am also cautious about falling in love this time around. I am still hoping that someday I would see the day when a second chance at love is possible.