Destiny's Reality

The mere idea of destiny when you are young would seem so simple and possible, or may be, even magical. An interesting wonder. A simple scenario such as a young girl meeting a boy on a summer day and forging a memorable bond of friendship that grows through the years. One of them hoping that someday they will end up together, forever. In reality, no matter how much this dream would seem so beautiful to look forward to, different circumstances through the space in between time could and would taint this dream. Or, it could even prove what the dream is worth depending on how time would mold us into the person we would become in the future. It could even predict the real future awaiting both of you. Making the dream destiny Questions such as, is he/she what he/she used to be the person I met years ago; does he/she feel the same way about me; am I alone in this feeling; if he/she does feel the same way, would our friendship be the same as it used to be?

I learned in time that you cannot be certain about the future. No matter how magical or serendipitous the turn of events might be. You have to get used to the painful truth that in the reality that you should be living in, you should accept what the outcome would be in the future. You may or may not end up with the boy/girl you've fallen in love with years ago. As what has been laid out in front of you as time goes by, it is uncertain. Things may not what they seem. Thus, you struggle to forget that one person that made your heart beat in an unforgettable way.

Feeling Old at 24

I have been feeling mixed emotions lately about my life in general. At 24, I feel so old and tired. With the kind of working environment I'm in and the kind of life I have at home. I wish things were more simple. I wish I had all the money in the world to pay off debts and give a more comfortable life for my family. I wish I had a different life where loving is more important because it's the one thing that will help you survive in the world.

How I wish some older people would realize how life is so different now compared to the life they had when they were just starting to work. I feel so alone in this misery I'm suffering. I'm still blessed because God is still watching over me through great friends surrounding me.

Just Depressed

With the realities unfolding before my eyes, I feel the more lost in my life. I just don't know how I'll pick up the pieces and how to put them back together. I'm so confused with what's been going on with everything. The things that I found as reason to continue on living, has just given me the painful death. I feel so numb inside.