I Will Always Love You...

The weather suddenly changed last night. The winds have become chilly which means that the Christmas season has officially started. It completes the whole mood of this season. It also means that another year is ending. I'm praying that this year, my Christmas and New Year will be a happy one. Last year wasn't really something that would fit into the family album. But, someone did change that and made Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve very memorable to me. Who was he? I'd rather keep it a secret...

My friend, Nana, noticed that I've been quiet these days. It brought me to a realization that I've been lost in my thoughts again. It's just that there are so many things going on and I try my best to sort things in my life inside my head. It's just overwhelming! Sometimes I wish I could get away from work for a while so I could relax and rewind.

My former officemates found my estranged ex-boyfriend at the new building they transferred office to. They quickly reported their ghostly encounter through sending me a message in Yahoo! Messenger. I was out of the office that time so I wasn't able to read their messages anymore. One of them repeated the message when I was already at home. Cherrie told me that it looks like he's working at a call center. While she was telling me the details, I was reminded of the slight sting of the past. Now, I have to deal with the possibility that I might bump into him when I deliver magazines to that office building. The others told me the same news again the next day. A part of me didn't want to see him, but another part of me wants to face him so that he can see that I have finally moved on. They told me that I shouldn't be scared to face him because I have changed for the better and he should be the one to feel ashamed of showing his face to me.

I've thought of it for a while along with the other things I have to settle at work. Then I remembered someone close to my heart and how great he has been treating me all these years that we've been close friends. He was someone who got away in the past just before I met my ex. Now, I have already learned from my mistakes and I have finally moved on. I asked God for a sign that afternoon. If I see my ex, it means that I still have an unfinished business with him, and if I see my guy friend, it only means that I should have more faith in him. At the end of the day, I spent a great time with my guy friend. It really is FATE... :)

The only way I could describe what I'm feeling about him is with this song from 311 titled Love Song in the 50 First Dates Soundtrack:

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far awayI will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you