the journey of a purple phoenix

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Changes

Don't you hate it when you go through changes in your life and learn to get used to it? You just wish that everything would just remain the same but you know that you can't keep things as they are. People change, people move away to different places, and people pass. It's the only way to grow and live life to the fullest. Learn how to deal with different realities in life. There are a lot of adjustments to do.

Letting go is hard to do. I think what makes it hard to do is that there is the fear of uncertainty of what is ahead. Will your paths cross again? Will you ever keep in touch? Will you remember the times spent together? Will you ever find that happiness again as you go along living life on your own? What is to become of what you had left behind?

It's sad to see friends, good neighbors, and relatives move away knowing that you won't be spending the usual days with them anymore. The things that you got used to. You know that it's hard for them to leave too. They will be facing a lot of changes once they get to the new place where they will live.

Aine and I went to see John and Carla for the last time before they left for the US. It was a solemn goodbye. It was hard to even say it because it was something that sounded so final. It was even hard to share laughs because you know that that is one of the things that you'll miss when they're gone. It was even hard to give an advise on long distance relationship to John and Grace, his girlfriend. You have a really good feeling about their relationship but you also know that it takes time to test how strong they feel for each other. What I could only say was the reality of things. Carla gave us one last hug that night before we left them to finish packing. We didn't go with them to the airport anymore. Aside from being told by mom not to go anymore, it will be hard for me to see them off. I hate bringing relative and friends to the airport. The last time I was supposed to see a friend off, I cried non-stop. Yes, John and Carla, it's really silly of me! We'll really miss you guys back here in little old Tahanan Village. This will always be your home. :)


Funny how you could still remember the silly things you did when you were younger. Seeing old friends and reminiscing about the things you did for fun and realize that it was actually an embarrassing thing to do. Some couples grow apart and some old couples cross paths and fall in love again. It was a classic moment. You realize what changes you went through in between. Darn it... Now that song is stuck in my head.."Praise his name and see it haaappen.." With that classic dance choreography flashing in my memory... Long story... it's funny to even describe what we did back then. ;p Sigh... those were the days...

1 Comments:

  • Dude, I can totally relate to all you've said. Right now I'm seeing two good friends leaving. One was a friend who's helped me learn new things and helped push me get a job. Another one who I am totally attracted to, is leaving in September to find her independence. But that's life. Sometimes the hand of fate seemingly deals you a bad card. Life just goes on and so will we. That card that felt unlucky actually isn't bad at all.
    It's just how creative you are at adapting in life. You suffer, yet you also grow. This is just an inevitable part of "growing". The more you experiences you have, the better you become. And because of this, you can actually help and reach out to different people.

    Don't feel too sad though because good friends will always be in each others hearts and minds. And no one can take away those precious memories. In the end, we will all one day be together.

    Your bud,

    -IAN

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:01 PM  

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