Overwhelmed

Last Sunday afternoon, I went to Portofino with my Mom and younger brother, Lorenzo, to check out the developments in it and the empty lot of my Tita Marivic. It was a perfect Sunday afternoon. It was cool and sunny with a bit of cotton clouds in the sky. As we reached the place, I was transported to another world. It was like a vision in my day dreams of what a good place to live should look like. The style of the houses were a mix of European and Spanish structuring. There were some islands of greenery on some places which makes the place more like a place in Beverly Hills. I loved it! I wish that someday I could buy a house here when I get married. :)

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I have been dealing with a lot of changes in the office and the possible changes that I have to do to myself. For the past years, after I've stepped down as the president of the choir, I have been afraid to take on a leadership role. I was scared of what changes that might occur in me because I was too conscious of how people wouid deal with me personally. I was afraid that they might not be able to separate and understand the duties and responsiblities that I have to act on and what I am as a person.

This is no longer the Devil Wears Prada chapter. I will no longer be trained to dress well and how to deal with clients. I am past that already. What I am being trained to do now is how to take the duties and responsibilities of a supervisor. Just a week ago, I was promoted as the Advertising Supervisor. It costed a stir on some people, questioning my promotion. I couldn't say that I was shocked, more like, overwhelmed. One, because it's a BIG responsibility and two, it's a BIG challenge. I started meeting with my boss about the plans for next year and also started to take some of the responsiblities as the Advertising Supervisor. My boss has been preparing me for the challenges that will come when it comes to the people that will be under me and also the higher quota that I have to reach every month. I have been thinking ahead of the possible challenges that I have to face and changes that I have to undergo. I know that I will shock a lot of people later in the near future. I keep telling myself to learn how to be tough and firm with being fair with everyone in the team. I know what each of them is capable so I have to be really alert in everything. I just pray that I will be able to handle the challenges that will come later on.

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I was feeling nostalgic lately. I dunno. Maybe it's the good weather that we have lately. The afternoons these days are cool and sunny. It brings me back to what I missed about my childhood. These are the random things that I really miss:

1. Sneaking out in the middle of afternoon siesta just to play with Mara at their house in Bogambilya.
2. Going to the park with LuAnne and Abbie on summer afternoons.
3. Going to the tennis clinic early summer mornings and coming home through the sunny alleyway beside our house.
4. Spending summer nights practicing a cheer dance and volleyball for the summer sportsfest.
5. Driving lessons and pep talks with my father.
6. High School days...
7. Swimming practices on summer afternoons.
8. Trick or Treating with village friends.
9. Christmases with my cousins Louie, Edmund, Francis, Trisha, Marisse, Virgil, and Baby Carmella.
10. Being spoilt by my father with books and chocolates.

*Sigh* I miss those days...