Changing Paths

I should let go. I do. I just have to gather up the strength to do it. Change my lifestyle...oh, wait, I have been doing that for years already. I think the problem is that I'm in the same country with him. Maybe I should really take moving to the US seriously this time. Get my VISA application moving. Seriously this time. Maybe I could Chef Pablo can refer me to work in the US if I take this culinary business seriously. Maybe if I change my address and be thousand of miles away from him, then I would be able to move on and forget about him. Maybe I'll find someone else greater than him. Who can really take me seriously and treat me the way I should be treated. Someone who would dare to get to know the real me and who is strong enough to love me for me.

This thing I have for him. I was alone. I was alone when I felt it. I was the only one who was in love and sure about it. But he never was. I was just one of the girls he wooed with his peculiar charms. Played around in the guise of peculiar friendships with girls. I thought I was the only one who was treated in a special way until I have met some girls who also knew him and some testimonials to attest that. I guess, I'm not the only girl he got confused with his sweet ways. I should have known better.

Well, now that I'm sure that there's nothing between us and my premonition of long ago is jinxed forever, I'm off to move on to another journey in my life. But, no matter where I go, I will still be the same person who's always in search for answers to so many lingering questions in my life.